I’m so grateful to be able to work from home the days I take my Humira shot (shout-out to the bandaid on my leg!). Usually I take my shots on Thursdays, but since I was traveling this week I got to take it on a Friday. Working from home on Fridays are THE BEST! Although I did spend my entire morning working in one spreadsheet trying to fix and analyze our expense trends, which was a little less than fun. Oh well, my boss was happy so I guess that’s all that matters (at least during working hours). L had to work late on a project, so I caught up on all of my shows and ate a salad and half a bag of salt & vinegar chips. Balance, yall.
I bought this cardigan when I was doing a HIGH SCHOOL summer program at Boston University. It’s outlived most of my stuff – plus it’s super cozy and warm. I paired my cardigan with a shirt that I’ve had for 10+ years and these Uggs slippers that I bought in high school to be cool. Some days, the oldies but the goodies win!
Sound off: what’s the oldest thing in your closet?
Cardigan: Urban Outfitters purchased eleven years ago for $40 (similar, similar)
Top: J. Crew Factory purchased ten years ago for $30 (similar, similar)
Shorts: Brooks purchased five years ago for $30 (similar, similar)
Slippers: UGG purchased eight years ago for $100 (similar, similar)
Ever since I was little, I’ve been terrified of needles. A little while ago, I wrote a blog post on my first terrible experience with needles: I had to go through the rabies shots as a three year old. The rabies shots are a series of six shots over the course of 5 days within a month. Ever since then, I’ve been terrified of needles: I had a full blown panic attack behind the potter plant going into the doctors. I’ve passed out watching my sister get her blood taken. I’ve kicked a nurse (when I was a little too old to get away with that). I made my mom drive 6 hours to be with me when I needed a shot in college.
So imagine my surprise when I found out the only medication that could help with my ankylosing spondylitis was an injection. I begged and pleaded with my doctor – surely in our developed country we have a handy, dandy pill I could pop? Unfortunately our medical community is busy trying to cure cancer or something, because I’m stuck with a shot. After some vague “don’t let your past define you” speech that I think was supposed to be inspirational from my doctor, he sent me home with a prescription for Humira and a link to a how-to video. The video was just dumb – who the heck smiles while sticking themselves with a tube of pain while cheerfully talking about breathing. My first go was bad – not only does the injection last ten seconds (but feels like four minutes), it’s actually pretty painful. Coming from a girl who’s fall off horses, broken bones, and ran a marathon, I’d rank my Humira shot in the top ten easily.
Now I’ve been taking these shots for about seven months, which equates to about 14 shots. I’ve had good days where I sit still and barely cry when L pokes me. There are bad days when I hide in the closet, shaking and pleading with L to not make me do it. Usually L needs to remind me that I need this shot to be able to function. I wish that taking my shot was a painless, smooth transaction, simple as pouring my morning coffee. I know it’s okay to have fears, it’s okay to fail, and it’s okay to cry.
Top: Unknown brand gifted three years ago (similar, similar)
Vest: LeTote (FATE Quilted Vest) retails for $58 (exact, similar)
Leggings: UnderAmour gifted six years ago (similar, similar)
Slippers: UGG purchased eight years ago for $100 (similar, similar)
I am so glad I get to work from home every-other Thursday. I may like this day better than food truck Tuesday at the office because I can get away with wearing leggings all day. Actually scratch that – I hate the whole getting my shot part of today. No tears today, so that’s an improvement.
I’ve mentioned it before, but I stay home every other Thursday because that’s the day I take my Humira shot for my ankylosing spondylitis. Last night the coolest thing ever happened – someone reached out on Insta who also had AS and wanted to know more about my journey while she was figuring out her AS diagnosis. I remember when I was first diagnosed with AS, I sped to the internet to find anything that I could. I was so scared and shocked – there’s lots of people with fully fused spines and who are in too much pain to get out of bed. There’s not enough good news stories out there about this constantly annoying disease.
Recently in the news, there’s been some hope. Imagine Dragons singer Dan Reynolds recently came out about his battle with AS. Helgi Olafson is a Ironman triathlete. I’m not touring worldwide or being athletic for 6 hours straight, but I’m active. I have a full-time job. And I’m sure as hell not going to let this thing stop me. Yes, I’m more tired than I used to be and I hate this shot more than I hated drinking my milk as a kid (fun fact, I used to cry. About milk… I was such a peach). But I’m doing just fine.
I’m going to get through all this. Anyone who’s suffering too, you’re going to get through this too. Yes, it sucks know there’s no cure and yes, you will need to make some life changes. Yes it’s annoying when people assume that because you look normal that you’re needy or dramatic or lying. But there’s a community and there’s an important place for you in this world that supersedes the stuff you’re going to hear at your rheumatologist’s. You will be fine. You’re good.
P.S. All of these amazing pictures were taken by my favorite photographer Erika Eveleth. She does a little bit of everything, so if you’re looking for a photographer in the Atlanta area CHECK HER OUT! Her website is here.
Flannel: J. Crew gifted two years ago (similar, similar)
Vest: Jones New York purchased two years ago for $30 (similar, similar)
Leggings: PINK purchased two years ago for $40 (similar, similar)
Boots: Zulily (Arctic Plunge) purchased recently for $35 (similar, similar)
As per my usual Thursday routine, I took my Humira shot this morning bright and early and then the not-so-normal: anxiously waited for my friend from college to get in! I was lucky enough to work from home today; although I worked super late last night so I had a little flexibility. T is studying for her physical therapy boards and napping from her early flight, so I actually got a lot done anyways, despite my waning concentration.
Shifting gears: now that fall is in full force, I’ve been desperately wanting a change from my light hair. My stylist had a last minute opening tonight and because T is the best ever, she’s coming with me to the salon!
Even though I’m sure T didn’t expect to be sitting at the salon with me for hours, I wouldn’t have it any other way. We had time to catch up and drink a little too much red wine – well she did. I was driving. And now for the big reveal….
I’m a brunette again! After almost a year of playing with my hair, from red to blonde, I’m bad at my natural-ish state. I’m so excited to not worry about my roots anymore! Anyways, outfit-wise I wanted to stay simple and comfortable – after all, I was sitting in a chair for hours.
Sound off: do any of you play with your hair color?
Dress: LeTote retails for $70 (exact, similar)
Shoes: Sperry purchased three years ago for $60 (similar)
Oh my goodness I feel like I have so much I need to accomplish before our vacation! Every other Thursday I work from home and today I was absolutely slammed. I spent the entire working a million miles an hour. At 3pm I realized that I hadn’t even eaten yet!
Anyways, today was filled with lots expense tracking for work, wedding budget planning (scary!), and birthday planning. It’s funny, LB and L were talking the other day about how no one takes their birthday seriously after they turn 21. Apparently I’m an anomaly. I’m so excited for birthday next month – we booked a cabin for a bunch of us to head up to north Georgia.
Sorry this post is a little all over the place, but I’m a little all over the place right now. That’s why my outfit is one of my favorite tried-and-true outfits.
Top: J. Crew Factory purchased five years ago for $20 (similar, similar)
Jeans: Gap purchased six months ago for $55 (similar, similar)
Sandals: Nordstrom Rack (Birkenstock) purchased two years ago for $55 (exact)