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Day 333: Where I Need to Be

Before our family emergency, I was planning to head home this weekend to visit my family. I was super torn – do I stay with L’s family and potentially make them feel bad for the missed trip or do I just head home? At L’s aggressive prodding, I ended up sitting at a bar in the Charlotte airport, crying and conflicted. After boarding the plane, I ended up next to a woman named Tina around my age who was heading home to visit family too. After talking for a little bit, Tina confided that she was headed home for the one year anniversary of her dad’s death. She was struggling with how to process and move onwards – something I understood all too well. I still can’t grasp that this June marks ten years since my dad lost his fight to cancer. For me, time has a funny way of playing both extremes: sometimes I feel like it was just yesterday that my dad was teasing me, while other days he seems so far away. The internal turmoil, the anger, and the fear of living in a world without my dad have been a daily struggle every single day for the past ten years. As our plane ride to Boston continued, Tina and I cried and laughed and shared lots of stories about our fathers. Although earlier in the day, I was worried about making the wrong choice, it became apparent that this was what Tina and I both needed at this time. I was right where I needed to be.

As I mentioned yesterday, I needed to shop so that I could actually have something to wear! Today everything I wore was new – from the black leggings to the shirt to my cardigan. Thank goodness I stopped to grab these essentials or else I’d be in shorts and a t-shirt!

Outfit Details
Top: Old Navy purchased yesterday for $11.99 (similar, similar, similar)
Cardigan: Old Navy purchased yesterday for $4.98 (similar, similar)
Leggings: Old Navy purchased yesterday for $4.98 (similar, similar)
Shoes: Adidas purchased two months ago for $60 (similar, similar)

Day 121: RIP

There should be a special place in hell for the people who use those personal lights on a 5am flight. Thanks for lighting up the whole hanger for us. 

Today I’m traveling to Massachusetts for my aunt’s funeral. I kicked off the day at 3:30am. L initially offered to drive me to the airport, but when he realized how early his wake-up call would be, he suggested Uber. Since it was so early, I made it all the way to Massachusetts before I realized I forgot to pack underwear….

So my dad’s side of our family is pretty massive. He had four sisters, and his oldest two sisters already had kids when he was born, so our family is a little lopsided. There’s a group of us that are all around the same age. We grew up together – starting with matching Tinkerbell bathing suits that were not cute, then moving on to taking our first shots of alcohol together.

When I heard about my oldest cousin’s mother passing away, I knew I had to make it up to Massachusetts. I wish I was seeing every one under better circumstances but it was amazing to see everyone!


Outfit Details
Dress: Banana Republic Outlet purchased three years ago for $60 (similar, similar)
Heels:ThredUp (Franco Sarto) purchased one year ago for $22 (similar, similar)