Before our family emergency, I was planning to head home this weekend to visit my family. I was super torn – do I stay with L’s family and potentially make them feel bad for the missed trip or do I just head home? At L’s aggressive prodding, I ended up sitting at a bar in the Charlotte airport, crying and conflicted. After boarding the plane, I ended up next to a woman named Tina around my age who was heading home to visit family too. After talking for a little bit, Tina confided that she was headed home for the one year anniversary of her dad’s death. She was struggling with how to process and move onwards – something I understood all too well. I still can’t grasp that this June marks ten years since my dad lost his fight to cancer. For me, time has a funny way of playing both extremes: sometimes I feel like it was just yesterday that my dad was teasing me, while other days he seems so far away. The internal turmoil, the anger, and the fear of living in a world without my dad have been a daily struggle every single day for the past ten years. As our plane ride to Boston continued, Tina and I cried and laughed and shared lots of stories about our fathers. Although earlier in the day, I was worried about making the wrong choice, it became apparent that this was what Tina and I both needed at this time. I was right where I needed to be.
As I mentioned yesterday, I needed to shop so that I could actually have something to wear! Today everything I wore was new – from the black leggings to the shirt to my cardigan. Thank goodness I stopped to grab these essentials or else I’d be in shorts and a t-shirt!
Top: Old Navy purchased yesterday for $11.99 (similar, similar, similar)
Cardigan: Old Navy purchased yesterday for $4.98 (similar, similar)
Leggings: Old Navy purchased yesterday for $4.98 (similar, similar)
Shoes: Adidas purchased two months ago for $60 (similar, similar)